in pursuit of happyness...

so i realized something today... something that i don't fully understand but have no choice but to accept.

When i was just a kid i loved to go outside and see my friends from the neighborhood and we'd ride our bikes around the block racing each other, we'd grab a basketball and shoot some hoops, we'd play street hockey until the street lights were the only thing helping us see the ball. I did those things because ultimately it made me happy. Even till this day, each and everyday i wake up and i look for things to do that would just simply make me happy. I couldn't see myself as a kid locking myself in my room and not seeing my friends or not watching my favorite tv shows; forcing myself to not be part of something that made me happy.

As selfish as it may seem but in the end when each of us wake up we subconsciously do things that will bring joy in to our lives, make us laugh and once again that just simply makes us happy. I know under certain circumstances sacrifices must be made, like for the single parent who works 2 jobs or the pressured student who will hit the books on the weekends to ensure that they are on top of things. But deep down inside they know in the end it will bring them true happiness... although it may be a long term invest for when the single parent see their kid go off to college or when the student gets straight A's in all their courses. That was their 'pursuit for happyness'.

and what i realized was my way of thinking may be a little more present than others, my pursuit requires a more short term investment rather than a long term investment. and the trouble i have with this is that i think in certain situations in life why wait for something that might make you happy when something right there in front of you will make you happy. Why force yourself not to enjoy the moment, why force yourself to bury the feelings that you know can and will make you happy? why lock yourself in your room? I truly believe that if you are happy, then God has blessed your soul and looks down upon you with a smile because that is what he truly wants for us. To live the life he has given us and make the most out of it. And to be blessed by God means you couldnt be closer to him than you already are.

...but like i said my pursuit of happyness is a little more short termed than others... while others look far ahead and can predict that there pursuit of happyness is in the longrun..not in the present.

anyways dont know if that made sense to any of you... it just something that was bothering me and i had to get it out some how... so i blogged about it.... until next time!

later days