Why hello there...

Well well well look who it is... haha so i finally felt an urge to write on my blog after a 6 month hiatus. Dont know why it took so long, i guess i just felt as if i had nothing really important to share.

Well a few things haveee happened in my life since my last blog. Hmm first off i want to talk about my faith and how its growing everyday. Ever since i came back to God and gave myself to him, there isnt a day that goes by where i just sit down during my random QT moments and just thank him. Everytime i do have these moments, i get this chill down my spine and i feel so rejuvenated and blessed and its this crazy feeling i cant explain. Because of this i have a new prespective on life, i live not for myself, but for the Big man and his bigger plan that he has in store for me. I think i know what it is, but it is still kind of shaky, im just gonna have to have faith and let God lead me in the right direction.

I just got back from Sault Ste. Marie where i was on a Detachment 2nd in Command course, did alot of cool stuff like shoot at tanks and make them blow up, fired over 800rds and yah, all in all I learned alot. I took that time while at the army to really show my new faith in God, and talk to people about it. Mind you i wasnt preaching but just talking and i think and i hope some people did take i to heart and saw how God has changed me and maybe one way or another it will impact their lives too. I did my best to pray and read the bible every night, but because they swamped us with work it was very had to balance but God knows i did my best to manage.



heres some BIG NEWS... i had lunch with my dad and sister yesterday because my dad wanted to have a talk with us. And in this little sit down he told me and my sister that he is going to be getting re-married. I've met the ah juh mah before but never really talked to her, shes a little shy and i dont blame her. I mean shes a small korean ah juh mah meeting her new fiances kids who are alot older and especially since theres a language barrier it makes it that much harder. My thoughts on this whole thing is, veryyyy positive. My dad worked his ass off to raise me and my sister, and he did it all by himself. And now since my dad has found someone who makes him happy, that makes me soooo happy... i cant think of a person who deserves to be happy more than my father. I also think hes starting to get really lonely, i mean me and my sister are rarely home and when my dad gets home, its usually to an empty house... so with this new change its gonna be a very healthy change. ALSO!!! with this new package comes a new little step sister. Shes in grade 10. so i believe she is 15yrs old... her name is seo hyun, is sick at the guitar and has aspirations to become a doctor. So i think its gonna be pretty cool, haha i finally get to be a big brother... i wonder if shes gonna hate me for being protective cuz if she ever brings a guy home im gonna sort him out right quick, hahahaha... but im also gonna be that brother where i drive her to the mall with her friends and pick her up etc. so it'll def be a love hate relationship haha. anyways im pretty excited about it cuz its gonna be very different...

what else is thereeee??? hmmmm

OH yes leading into my next point, after having that dinner it really motivated me to continue doing what im doing and stay focused on my goals for this summer, as young as we are, or i am i dont feel young and i feel as if times going by so fast. I reallly believe i need to get my career going and start making choices not based on short term pleasures, but long term securities. Saving money, investing in my future and not spending money just on stupid things. People, friends and families are growing into new stages and i need to catch up!... so cheers to the future! and cheers to the strength and wisdom from God to help us persevere through any and all hard times.



OK thats all i can think of right now, hope my life didnt bore you too much!

later days!

check out the playlist

soo last night i was with reg and linds and we were youtubing all these old school korean songs. Dude, never have i felt so nostalgic in my life! the good ol'daysss... but whatever happened to awesome korean songs like this... they completely went off in this tangent that made me stop listening to korean music. Ah well.. i guess its the same thing as western mainstream hip hop. Old school is always better...

so i wanna complain about some things just for fun...

1) Guys who shower in axe body spray- So there are these people in the mens change room who think that after working out and sweating like an animal u dont need to shower and that spraying their entire bodies AND every single piece of clothing in axe body spray will mask the smell. i dont know about u guys but axe honestly smells like cheap cologne, it makes it hard to breathe and when u do... you start to taste that nasty cr*p... and it makes me so mad because not only does it smell like sh*t but now im forced to taste it! like you know when u think someone smells like BO or Sh*t well when i say someone smells like AXE i use that word in the same context as i would when i say someone smells like BO or sh*t. Guys trust me when i say AXE does not work, it does not make thousands of women from all over the world go on this crazy man hunt to find you so they can man rape you... it actually does the opposite.. just take a friggin shower! be a man and wave ur junk around and dont be embarassed.

2) The White Version of 'My Sassy Girl' - what the effff... worst westernized movie ever!... i dont think they understood that korean humour is VERY different from the western culture. and that movie only has korean humour because its a frggin korean movie. i just think it was sooo stupid that they decided to make a white version... because its an absolute fail and prob was the biggest waste of money. Whoever signed off on the idea is a moron.

hmm i think thats it.. thought i had more but oh well...n e ways until next time

later days!

W.O.D.

I know i only posted one workout last week but i hit the gym twice and my body was destroyed so i didnt go again haha... but new week and im all healed so heres mondays workout!

"BarBell Complex"

10R FT

5 Deadlifts
5 Cleans
5 Push Press

Weight Used: Beg: 95lbs
Int.: 105lbs
Adv.: 135lbs

GoodLuck!!! muHAHAHA *evil laugh*

W.O.D.

Hey so to the people who may be interested in working out... i think im also gonna start posting the workouts i do everyday so maybe u can follow along and get jacked with me hahaha. Oh and also heres the legend you can use to understand the acronyms i use...

FT= For Time (race against the clock)...also FT means just One Round
5R FT = 5 Rounds For Time (aka 5 Sets For Time)
AMRP= As Many Rounds Possible (ie 20 mins AMRP...for 20 mins you do as manys rounds as you can)

Workout of the Day

"Audrey"

FT
50 Box Jumps (24" min.)
40 Dumbbell Thrusters
30 Burpee Pull Ups
40 Push Ups
50 Single Leg Squats (25/leg)

Good Luck fellas! MuHAHAHAHAHA *evil laugh*

refreshing...

Soo this is my first blog of 2010... im gonna have to say this is gonna be a pretty epic year. I have so many things i want to accomplish and if i stick to it... EPIC year this will be.

a couple things on the list... no specific order

1)Get Back Into Shape... haha i went to the gym for the first time in 2 mths and oh my am i sore today... and it was kinda depressing... i take physical fitness a lil more serious than others would and while i was struggling with my push ups and sit ups i was so dissapointed in myself for letting myself down i guess u can say. dont know why i did... but i made a promise to myself to NEVER let this happen again. Im gonna be 80yrs old with a 6 pack... muhahaha

2)Learn About God... so this journey i have embarked is becoming pretty serious... ive been doing alot of reading about the big man and although i have a few questions... whenever im walking back and forth from school or etc.. i find myself talking to myself and answering my own questions. It feels as if i have developed this person inside me who knows the answers to my questions. or maybe its just God talking to me through me? haha ionno... but its pretty sweet. and although this new way of believing and receiving is different... its a refreshing change.
i am and will be forever grateful for everything i have recieved from the lord i thank you for my health and for the family and friends that care and love me the same as i do for them... im thankful for the opportunities i have recieved such as being able to educate myself and even being able to play hockey... im thankful for the food i eat and for the bed i sleep in... and for all these things, these temporary things i am and always will be forever in your debt. With all the big man has given me and shown me... how can i not how can anyone not?! put all their faith and trust in him? I've learned alot in such a short period of time and i am happy as can be.

3) Mission Trip... This is gonna be the coolest thing i ever do. With all these changes in my life... i think the best thing to help reinforce my beliefs are to see it for my very eyes. I want to see God in action see how he lives through people. and i want to experience first hand how he lives through me. I want to go to mexico and help those in need i want to help make a difference any way i can... and i seriously just want to witness God at work.... its as simple as that. This is gonna be sick... who else wants to go? lets do ittttt!

these are a few things on the list... there is more but i dont feel like takling about them haha... ne ways thats all for now i guess... until next time!

later days

changes...

So its been awhile since my last post... and this one i just wanna talk about big changes in my life.

So during the year it really didnt feel like much was happening, nothing has really changed...but looking back and seeing the NOW... tons of things have changed!... some things i wont mention because its a lil redundant and not very important except for the fact that i have quit smoking AGAIN!... WADDUP!!!! haha... but i will talk about the important and most special changes in my life. The first one is me forgiving my mother with what had happened when my parents first split up. Not going into any details but me and my mom had a pretty close relationship while i was growing up. she was a stay at home mom and always drove me to hockey practice and birthday parties etc. So when the divorce happened and after witnessing a couple events i felt betrayed by the one person whom i loved the most in the world... needless to say i never forgave her even after 10years! i still had this hatred buried deep down inside of me...but what made me want to forgive her is when i developed my relationship with God. He told me i had to purify my heart and forgive her as he forgives us for our sins. Family is suppose to have this unconditional love... and God leads by example so i felt very obligated to follow in his footsteps. I actually havnt talked to anyone about this personally nor have i told my mom the way i felt... but i prayed about it and i do forgive her. So now with that burden off my shoulders and that hole now filled in my heart i am able to continue on my journey to learning more about God and his plan for me. Which brings me to my next point... so a friend has given me a book called "The Purpose Driven Life" and its suppose to take you on a 40 day journey and in the end you will have learned about what Gods plan is for you and why you are here on this earth. There are 40 chapters and you are to read 1 chapter a day. So i read the first chapter today and the very FIRST sentence it says is "it's not about you." And it talks about how everyone lives their life to the worlds standard which blinds them from the true purpose of life which is Gods purpose. We who live by the worlds standard are consumed by the fact that inorder to be successful we have to find the best paying job, make lots of money, succeed in our careers etc etc... but God says no, thats not all there is to life.

So with that being said, a few discrepencies come to my mind. I understand that focusing on yourself is not the only thing in life but what if thats part of your characteristics. You are a motivated and self-driven person. Why is the fact that you want to be a successful business person or which ever career you chose such a bad thing? I mean is there balance between having and wanting both? and then a point in the book caught my attention and it said... "You may choose your career, your spouse, your hobbies and many other parts of your life, but you dont get to choose your purpose" so then my question was answered... you can find a balance between... you can be all you want to be... but you CANNOT let that be the ONLY purpose in your life, you must also find the will deep inside you to give your undivided attention to God and show him you are committed and you do have a passion to learn... inorder to find Gods purpose you must develop that realtionship...and i believe i have already taken the first step.

So also at the end of every chapter they give you 3 things to think about for the day until you read the next chapter... These 3 things are:

1) Point to Ponder: It's not about me
2) Verse to Remember: "Everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him." Colossians 1:16b
3) Question to Consider: In spite of all the advertising around me how can i remind myself that life is really about living for God, not myself?

well theres something for you guys to think about... until then

later days

have Faith, Trust & Hope... but how?

So today i had dinner with a ddhong seng of mineee... and it was good to see her cuz she a little ball of awesomeness. But back to the topic at hand... Remember how i said i was new to this whole christianity thing well i was talking to my ds about how do I as a new christian talk to God or even have a talk about God. I've been thinking about it ALOT since this issue was raised a couple nights ago. How do i; someone who doesnt know... talk about something that he knows nothing about. And my ds came from a very christian background and she simply said what do i want to know.. what questions come up to my mind when i wonder about God and his work. And the reason why this was so hard for is because....when this issue was raised it was like a first year economics major(me) talking about Canadas current economy with an actual economist(the questioner) it was not only a little intimidating but kinda overwhelming... i sat there just thinking in my head what do i talk about what do i say...and in the end i said nothing because thats all i had. Until today where i didnt feel so pressured... i asked my ds... How do i as a person who wants to put all his faith in God know that i am actually doing that? I mean i want to have complete faith in him because i know he with bless me with something great... but how do i KNOW im actually doing that? and thats what i dont understand... how does one measure there ability to know that they are fully sitting in that chair putting all their weight on it as Rev. Jackson so simply put it. I know for a fact i wont be able to cut out my friends or my work because i need a social life and i need to pay the bills... but those are things that are impeding me from fully sitting in that chair... or am i wrong? is there another way of knowing that you have complete faith.. or is it just something you know? that you dont even have to question? I just hope its something i'll be able to do....

and this leads me to my next point!

as a new christian i haven't really spent much time reading the bible and im oblivious to all the lessons it teaches about how to have faith, or how to calm ones soul or how to be a wise man... and without knowing these steps i feel as if i can see but i cant touch... im on the other side of the street watching but i cant cross... i guess i have to take the time to open up the bible and see for myself the lessons that are taught and how i can implement them into my life.

until next time!

later days