So today i had dinner with a ddhong seng of mineee... and it was good to see her cuz she a little ball of awesomeness. But back to the topic at hand... Remember how i said i was new to this whole christianity thing well i was talking to my ds about how do I as a new christian talk to God or even have a talk about God. I've been thinking about it ALOT since this issue was raised a couple nights ago. How do i; someone who doesnt know... talk about something that he knows nothing about. And my ds came from a very christian background and she simply said what do i want to know.. what questions come up to my mind when i wonder about God and his work. And the reason why this was so hard for is because....when this issue was raised it was like a first year economics major(me) talking about Canadas current economy with an actual economist(the questioner) it was not only a little intimidating but kinda overwhelming... i sat there just thinking in my head what do i talk about what do i say...and in the end i said nothing because thats all i had. Until today where i didnt feel so pressured... i asked my ds... How do i as a person who wants to put all his faith in God know that i am actually doing that? I mean i want to have complete faith in him because i know he with bless me with something great... but how do i KNOW im actually doing that? and thats what i dont understand... how does one measure there ability to know that they are fully sitting in that chair putting all their weight on it as Rev. Jackson so simply put it. I know for a fact i wont be able to cut out my friends or my work because i need a social life and i need to pay the bills... but those are things that are impeding me from fully sitting in that chair... or am i wrong? is there another way of knowing that you have complete faith.. or is it just something you know? that you dont even have to question? I just hope its something i'll be able to do....
and this leads me to my next point!
as a new christian i haven't really spent much time reading the bible and im oblivious to all the lessons it teaches about how to have faith, or how to calm ones soul or how to be a wise man... and without knowing these steps i feel as if i can see but i cant touch... im on the other side of the street watching but i cant cross... i guess i have to take the time to open up the bible and see for myself the lessons that are taught and how i can implement them into my life.
until next time!
later days
So wise, you already know what it is you need to do to grow.
ReplyDeleteGod doesnt want you to cut out the life he set for you for you to see Him. But rather work him into every aspect of your life so that He may be seen through you.
Man word up to kevin.
ReplyDeleteI guess you can't know fully. But you can know that if God were to say to drop this or drop that, you would. It's about obedience...but also it's about love. Talking to God and about God doesn't mean you have to talk about things that seem 'godly'. It just means being yourself in front of him honestly, with all you have and are curious about. He honours that.