changes...

So its been awhile since my last post... and this one i just wanna talk about big changes in my life.

So during the year it really didnt feel like much was happening, nothing has really changed...but looking back and seeing the NOW... tons of things have changed!... some things i wont mention because its a lil redundant and not very important except for the fact that i have quit smoking AGAIN!... WADDUP!!!! haha... but i will talk about the important and most special changes in my life. The first one is me forgiving my mother with what had happened when my parents first split up. Not going into any details but me and my mom had a pretty close relationship while i was growing up. she was a stay at home mom and always drove me to hockey practice and birthday parties etc. So when the divorce happened and after witnessing a couple events i felt betrayed by the one person whom i loved the most in the world... needless to say i never forgave her even after 10years! i still had this hatred buried deep down inside of me...but what made me want to forgive her is when i developed my relationship with God. He told me i had to purify my heart and forgive her as he forgives us for our sins. Family is suppose to have this unconditional love... and God leads by example so i felt very obligated to follow in his footsteps. I actually havnt talked to anyone about this personally nor have i told my mom the way i felt... but i prayed about it and i do forgive her. So now with that burden off my shoulders and that hole now filled in my heart i am able to continue on my journey to learning more about God and his plan for me. Which brings me to my next point... so a friend has given me a book called "The Purpose Driven Life" and its suppose to take you on a 40 day journey and in the end you will have learned about what Gods plan is for you and why you are here on this earth. There are 40 chapters and you are to read 1 chapter a day. So i read the first chapter today and the very FIRST sentence it says is "it's not about you." And it talks about how everyone lives their life to the worlds standard which blinds them from the true purpose of life which is Gods purpose. We who live by the worlds standard are consumed by the fact that inorder to be successful we have to find the best paying job, make lots of money, succeed in our careers etc etc... but God says no, thats not all there is to life.

So with that being said, a few discrepencies come to my mind. I understand that focusing on yourself is not the only thing in life but what if thats part of your characteristics. You are a motivated and self-driven person. Why is the fact that you want to be a successful business person or which ever career you chose such a bad thing? I mean is there balance between having and wanting both? and then a point in the book caught my attention and it said... "You may choose your career, your spouse, your hobbies and many other parts of your life, but you dont get to choose your purpose" so then my question was answered... you can find a balance between... you can be all you want to be... but you CANNOT let that be the ONLY purpose in your life, you must also find the will deep inside you to give your undivided attention to God and show him you are committed and you do have a passion to learn... inorder to find Gods purpose you must develop that realtionship...and i believe i have already taken the first step.

So also at the end of every chapter they give you 3 things to think about for the day until you read the next chapter... These 3 things are:

1) Point to Ponder: It's not about me
2) Verse to Remember: "Everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him." Colossians 1:16b
3) Question to Consider: In spite of all the advertising around me how can i remind myself that life is really about living for God, not myself?

well theres something for you guys to think about... until then

later days